I am a very bad blogger...

Yeah... it's been a while.
Between a few snow days here and there and days off of work for holidays, not to mention morning sickness- I've just been slack around here. The good news- this is the last week of Cheerleading! YAAAY!

Now don't get me wrong, I <3 (most of) these girls to death, but at some point, I'd like to go home at 3:30, please. Especially when I'm exhausted and all I want to do it lay on the couch watching DVR'ed "Deliver Me" (I'm starting to think I have a problem).

Something that's been on my mind lately is my life after May. "The Plan" is for me to take a year (or possibly more) off from teaching. I'm not a huge fan of the district I'm in (the people are great, but it's just so far away! AND I'm learning that I am NOT called to work with middle schoolers in an educational setting. We don't mesh.) AND I just want to be home with the baby for that first year.

But then I got to thinking "Who do I think I am to walk away from a perfectly good job, when, in this economy, there are a TON of people who can't find work at all!? What makes me think I'll be able to 'get back out there' when the time is right for our family?" A TON of districts around here have hiring freezes- for example, when I leave, they won't replace me. They'll either NOT have music, or have the high school music teacher come by a few times a week. I just can't stop thinking about that.

I feel like I'm free-falling from a high trapeze with no net.
(Well, I guess Joe's salary is a net... but not a huge bouncy safe-looking net)

ANYWAYS, the reason I'm even here at home and able to blog at the moment is because I've had a teeny bit of spotting this weekend and, being the massive worrier that I am, I called the Dr. who aid everything sounds fine, but that she'd have me in for an ultrasound just to "ease my mind".
So here I am, 9:40am on a Tuesday, just finished an Egg McMuffin, about to jump in the shower, very much ready for some "easing of my mind".