Today is another due date of mine.
Truth be told, earlier this week I was a disaster zone. I had a couple of days there when I would just cry out of nowhere. I had already written this long doom and gloom pity-party post talking about how bad the day sucks. (it was "big time", btw). I've been through this before- a due date with no baby to show for it- but last time I was already pregnant again so that was a little different.
Today, however, I have hope.
It's crazy how often I have to remind myself that I am not in control- but as weak as that seems in the world's eyes, it's such a comfort to me. It's such a blessing to know that the God who created the universe is in charge of my life. He always does what's best, and what's best for Him is, in the long run, what's best for me.
We sang the song below in worship last week and I won't lie, I was basically crying the whole time. (Whoops- my bad to everyone within 5 feet of me.) The part that got me going was the line "When the harvest time is over and I still see no fruit, I will wait, I will wait for you". But the best part?
"When I failed to trust your promises, You never failed to hear my prayers".
Truth be told, earlier this week I was a disaster zone. I had a couple of days there when I would just cry out of nowhere. I had already written this long doom and gloom pity-party post talking about how bad the day sucks. (it was "big time", btw). I've been through this before- a due date with no baby to show for it- but last time I was already pregnant again so that was a little different.
Today, however, I have hope.
It's crazy how often I have to remind myself that I am not in control- but as weak as that seems in the world's eyes, it's such a comfort to me. It's such a blessing to know that the God who created the universe is in charge of my life. He always does what's best, and what's best for Him is, in the long run, what's best for me.
We sang the song below in worship last week and I won't lie, I was basically crying the whole time. (Whoops- my bad to everyone within 5 feet of me.) The part that got me going was the line "When the harvest time is over and I still see no fruit, I will wait, I will wait for you". But the best part?
"When I failed to trust your promises, You never failed to hear my prayers".
The secret mysteries belong to You
We only know what You reveal
And all my questions that are unresolved
Don’t change the wisdom of Your will
In every trial and loss
My hope is in the cross
Where Your compassions never fail.
I know I sound like a broken record, but it's becoming more and more clear to me that God's plan for my life is so much more than I could have ever dreamed. The events we see unfolding and the people that we have met in this past year all point to something more fantastic than anything we would have ever planned for ourselves. God knows exactly how and when our next child is going to come to us and He is in control of that, not me.
I'm happy to say that I'm learning to sit back and enjoy this ride.
I know I sound like a broken record, but it's becoming more and more clear to me that God's plan for my life is so much more than I could have ever dreamed. The events we see unfolding and the people that we have met in this past year all point to something more fantastic than anything we would have ever planned for ourselves. God knows exactly how and when our next child is going to come to us and He is in control of that, not me.
I'm happy to say that I'm learning to sit back and enjoy this ride.
2 comments:
(((hugs)) and you have me tearing up, now! you are still in my prayers.
love your faith and your perspective! Praying for you and your family :)
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