It's not usual for me to be quiet...

I'm usually the loudest one in a bunch, so it's pretty weird that I've been quiet over here. 

I do have a few good excuses, though. 

1. With a little help from my bff IKEA, I figured out my little "what to do with the giant sewing machine problem and have been just stitching away lately. Quilts, baby gifts, fixing my parent's dog's bed that she chewed the zipper out of... exciting stuff around here, folks. 

2. I started running again. Why did I ever stop? That was so dumb! I ran three 5k's last year and my goal for this year was three 10ks- I'm a bit behind seeing as how I took a "break" from December to April (ouch!), but I am signed up for the Hilton Head Bridge Run in October (10k) and then the Color Run in November (5k). Woot!

3. I'm having mixed feelings about blogging about our adoption journey. I am the #1 fan of basically any and all adoption blogs, but as we are about to begin our fourth month of "waiting", I can't help but get a bit wary of sharing details and happenings. Not because of the chance of our birth-mother "finding us", (we are actually hoping and praying for an open adoption), or because I like keeping secrets (I don't... and I suck at it), but because in a way I feel that our child's story is his/hers and not mine to share. It's hard to keep it between Joe, our parents and myself, but I feel like the details of our journey should be kept to ourselves until we find out where it leads us. 

Does that sound insane? Sometimes I think so. 

Also, I'm VERY whiny at times. Trust me, you don't want to read a bunch of "We haven't been picked yet." and "Well.... we haven't been picked yet". Trust me- I'm sparing you. I'm a super-impatient person and this adoption journey has by far been the hardest thing I've ever done.

I know deep down that no matter when our baby comes to us, it is the *right* time. Just with getting pregnant with Noah- if I would have done it any sooner or any later, it wouldn't be NOAH. The Lord has already brought so many awesome people into our lives through this journey already and I'm trying so hard not to wish this time away. I think about when I was engaged and just waited and waited for my wedding day and then suddenly- it had come and gone. I think that applies to adoption as well- I want to make a conscience effort to enjoy each day of the waiting, know that God has put us here at this time for a reason and he's teaching me patience- how to wait well- something I've never been good at. 

I found this video earlier today and I feel like it is just what I needed to hear at that exact moment.

Don't worry- I'll be back with way less whining and way more pics of cute kids and creations in the next post. :)